Weekends

A hectic week have passed (even working on weekends). Rushing for all sort of statistics, slide presentation preparation, interview arrangement, clearance, job fair etc. A very tight schedule and yet an interesting one :) 

Lots of people doubted with my decision of venture into this field. But, its always been my dream to work in an office and become the so-called office lady. So far, I feel happy with my job. Of course, I will need to sacrifice a lot of thing, but I always bear in mind that, there is a principle applicable to all situation: No pain, no gain. 

Sometimes, lots of thoughts cross my mind while driving to / froth from work. I'm no longer a student and I'm a working adult. Finally, I working in the field that I always wanted to. There are still many things for me to learn. Every day is a brand new, exiting day. And every day, new challenges await me. 

A new beginning

Today marks a new chapter in my life. Tiring and yet motivating at the same time.

First Job Interview

At last, after 3 weeks of holiday, finally I received a call for interview with a well known company. The interview session was scheduled on the next day. To be frank, I was nervous, but it's not about the interview. Its about the journey from home to the company. I need to drive there alone! My probation period of driving is ending soon but I only drive several times throughout the whole probation period (and I never drive alone, more ever, I'm in the city well known for having heavy traffic and there is a plus, I have no sense of direction in this city! sighing...)

What needs to be done, have to be done. No matter what, I just have to face whatever lies ahead of me (This is what I told myself just to make myself less miserable). 

Today is just not my day. I went out from home one hour earlier and yet I almost missed the interview. First, I was having trouble trying to reverse my car from the car park (it took me 5 minutes just because there are cars parked so near behind me and beside me @.@). Then, having trouble to open the auto gate. Next, I overshoot the gate of the company (I didn't notice it was the gate of that company since several companies shared a gate @.@) and need to drive till dunno where to make a U-turn. Furthermore, I was having troubles in finding a parking and make a nice parking (I do admit that I'm terrible when comes to side parking. Sighing again... ). I thought that was the end of all the bad things, and guess what, I'm wrong. 

Upon the registration at the guard house, I make myself a fool by forgetting the name of the personnel who arranged for my interview. This took some time to sort everything out and make my entry into the company possible. Sighing again... 

  

Finally, I was in and waited for my turns. If I thought my day couldn't get any worst, and then it did. The interview session was terrible. I applied for a position that I'm lacking in interest. Even though I read through a lot of information regarding the job, I just could't answer the questions posted by the interviewers. Especially when come to the question of stamina ( I know I don't have a muscular look. It is impossible trying to twist facts and persuade them to accept me for the job.) I wasn't making a good impression on the interviewers. I can't even introduce myself properly!  I was really blurred when I'm bombarded with the question " What are you passionate about?" They are repeating the question and narrowing the scope till I can only keep silent. The whole situation was just, SO awkward. Towards the end of the interview, I gave up on any hope of getting this position. Strangely, I breathe a sigh of relief when this crossed my mind ( It seems that I really dislike the job.)

On the way back, my primary concern was whether I'm bringing shame on my family and those supported me. The things that brighten up my day were calls from my family and uncle, which just bring positive energy into my life. Family just means so much to me. I'm counting the days to be back to my family, my haven. 

Try Your Best

It's easier said than done. When friend mentioned about this quote, lots of thing came across my mind. It is true that we should put in effort in everything we do, however there is a BUT. Somehow, I just can't seems to be able to show much enthusiasm in doing something that I dislike.

I know I should but I can't.

When the others put in tremendous effort and striving for their best, I just do my work for the sake of the work. Assignment? Test? I couldn't care less.

This is not the path I would have chosen for myself.

However, what's done is done. As quoted from Joseph Campbell, "We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us."

It's time for me to Try My Best.

幸福

很多时候，我会不懂得去珍惜身旁所拥有的东西。。

但是， 今天就不一样：

一片海绵蛋糕，一起逛夜市，一起变落汤鸡，

有一个陪我一起经历这一切的朋友，

能认识她，我是幸福的。

一通电话里头，传来了吃饱了吗？一个人在家，还好吗？

几封短信，也可以让我觉得好幸福。。

家人的关心，问候，

虽然简短，但足以让我觉得有家人是幸福的。。。

原来，幸福可以是很简单，

只要懂得用心去体会，感受，

小小的事情也可以让我们感到快乐，幸福。

Holiday~~

Starting from today, I have one week of semester break. However, I'm still unable to plunge into a holiday mood. T.T

The reason behind this: Thesis and piles of assignment!

4 reflections, 1 article, 1 lab presentation, 1 thinking map, macroteaching (RPH, Instruments, etc), action research, linguistic group assignment and thesis PROPOSAL.

One week holiday is insufficient at all!

Hopefully can finish half of it...

Then can spend the rest of my holiday blissfully...

Lets work hard to finish the work and lets the holiday spirit soar! ^^

龙卷风

听着室友播放的歌， 在这忙碌的星期里忙里偷闲。。。

忽然，听到了周杰伦的龙卷风。。想起了我弟。。

依稀记得那时的我们很傻，

因为妈咪不让我俩买专辑，又没得上网，

但那时的我们很爱听歌，

所以只好向别人借来了专辑，抄下歌词，然后一起练唱 （其实是我弟教我这个五音不全的大姐唱 T.T)。

这首歌勾起了许都童年回忆， 不知那本抄满歌词的小册子依然还在吗？

开始想家了。。

家， 始终是最温暖的。。。

家， 始终是我的避风港。。。