Friday, January 8, 2010

Simple thoughts

I'm really tired... choosing a path that i totally dislike of is gonna make myself suffer in the future. Even till now, my 2nd semester at this uni, i still can't accept the truth that i'm studying education course.. Still unhappy about accepting ppl advise to become a teacher.. Yes, lots of ppl said its a good thing i can get it and surely lots of good things will come out following the choice that i have made. But none of them understand the inner struggling that i have bear with for so many months d.. When i don't like something, somehow i can never excel in it.. I've a very bad result last sem.. Really feels like crying.. dunno how long can i cope with all of these..

Tired!!!

Today is supposed to be good day... The day started off with a bright and sunny morning. But nothing went smoothly today. Well, here it goes:

As usual, we need to seek the approval from the board of lecturers in order to add or drop a course. The time given for us to undergone all those ‘exciting’ process is in 2 weeks time. And tomorrow, Friday is the due date for us to add a course. We(me and a few friends) have been hunting for 2 lecturers for the past one week (we only know that the lecture is crash with the lab session on last Wednesday if not mistaken, so not much time for us to act ). We arrived at campus, say 11a.m., then the hunting season begin. We walk from a place to another place to look the lecturer. Opps, he is not here and there too. So we ask for his location then we walk back again. We walk back and forth a few times, then suddenly as if the grace of the angels finally fallen on us, we saw the lecturer walking towards us. Both of us are so happy!! We get hold of his precious signature. It’s silly of us to think that the hunt have ended and we can finally hand in the forms to the office then can online to register it. None of us realise that the exciting part is still waiting for us...

After we gotten the signature, we need to get the approval from the head of department for that particular course. So we walk till the other end of the campus to reach his office. He was back after lunch break just after we have wait for a few minutes. All of us are having a same thought: we are so lucky today!!! No need to wait for a few hours... Haha.... We wait for our turns then we went in.

WE: Dr, can you do us a favour? We need your approval to drop this and join that.

Dr: Tell me your reasons?

We: oh, the lecture is crash with lab session. We discussed with the lecturer in charge of lab session d, it is not possible for us to change it. So we need to change this class to this and this day. We already got the approval from the lecturer who is going to teach us for this course.

Dr: No, I’ll not sign on these forms. Because so and so... (He talks a lot and we just skip that)

In the end, we didn’t manage to get his approval. We went to a few lecturers and some of them are also head of department. They also agree that the reasons given don’t seem good enough to reject our request. They did help us to fight for it and we’ve lose. All our time and energy spend on this are going to be wasted just like that. Sometimes, all these procedures of getting approval in a certain things can really spoil our days. We rush here and there for the whole day and ends up for nothing. 

Anyway, tomorrow we shall fight for it again and this will be the last fight! Wish us luck will you? 

Ps:This is written on 7 January 2010.

Monday, January 4, 2010

等待

人家说,守时是一种美德。

那等待呢?

又是个什么东西?

何谓等待?

傻傻地,痴痴地什么事也不做,

就只是坐在那,

期待着奇迹的出现,

等待着某种转变,甚至是改变。。。

那也许只是我痴心妄想,

但我依旧会守候着在你身旁。。。

this one is written on 31/12/09...

无奈

有点累了,

单地飞了这么久,

依然找不到属於我的栖息地。。。

有点无奈,

但仍然在广阔的天空里继续飞翔。。。

抱着一丝丝的希望,

属於我的世界就在不远的前方。。。


this one is written on 30/12/09...