Weekends

A hectic week have passed (even working on weekends). Rushing for all sort of statistics, slide presentation preparation, interview arrangement, clearance, job fair etc. A very tight schedule and yet an interesting one :) 

Lots of people doubted with my decision of venture into this field. But, its always been my dream to work in an office and become the so-called office lady. So far, I feel happy with my job. Of course, I will need to sacrifice a lot of thing, but I always bear in mind that, there is a principle applicable to all situation: No pain, no gain. 

Sometimes, lots of thoughts cross my mind while driving to / froth from work. I'm no longer a student and I'm a working adult. Finally, I working in the field that I always wanted to. There are still many things for me to learn. Every day is a brand new, exiting day. And every day, new challenges await me. 

A new beginning

Today marks a new chapter in my life. Tiring and yet motivating at the same time.

First Job Interview

At last, after 3 weeks of holiday, finally I received a call for interview with a well known company. The interview session was scheduled on the next day. To be frank, I was nervous, but it's not about the interview. Its about the journey from home to the company. I need to drive there alone! My probation period of driving is ending soon but I only drive several times throughout the whole probation period (and I never drive alone, more ever, I'm in the city well known for having heavy traffic and there is a plus, I have no sense of direction in this city! sighing...)

What needs to be done, have to be done. No matter what, I just have to face whatever lies ahead of me (This is what I told myself just to make myself less miserable). 

Today is just not my day. I went out from home one hour earlier and yet I almost missed the interview. First, I was having trouble trying to reverse my car from the car park (it took me 5 minutes just because there are cars parked so near behind me and beside me @.@). Then, having trouble to open the auto gate. Next, I overshoot the gate of the company (I didn't notice it was the gate of that company since several companies shared a gate @.@) and need to drive till dunno where to make a U-turn. Furthermore, I was having troubles in finding a parking and make a nice parking (I do admit that I'm terrible when comes to side parking. Sighing again... ). I thought that was the end of all the bad things, and guess what, I'm wrong. 

Upon the registration at the guard house, I make myself a fool by forgetting the name of the personnel who arranged for my interview. This took some time to sort everything out and make my entry into the company possible. Sighing again... 

  

Finally, I was in and waited for my turns. If I thought my day couldn't get any worst, and then it did. The interview session was terrible. I applied for a position that I'm lacking in interest. Even though I read through a lot of information regarding the job, I just could't answer the questions posted by the interviewers. Especially when come to the question of stamina ( I know I don't have a muscular look. It is impossible trying to twist facts and persuade them to accept me for the job.) I wasn't making a good impression on the interviewers. I can't even introduce myself properly!  I was really blurred when I'm bombarded with the question " What are you passionate about?" They are repeating the question and narrowing the scope till I can only keep silent. The whole situation was just, SO awkward. Towards the end of the interview, I gave up on any hope of getting this position. Strangely, I breathe a sigh of relief when this crossed my mind ( It seems that I really dislike the job.)

On the way back, my primary concern was whether I'm bringing shame on my family and those supported me. The things that brighten up my day were calls from my family and uncle, which just bring positive energy into my life. Family just means so much to me. I'm counting the days to be back to my family, my haven. 

Try Your Best

It's easier said than done. When friend mentioned about this quote, lots of thing came across my mind. It is true that we should put in effort in everything we do, however there is a BUT. Somehow, I just can't seems to be able to show much enthusiasm in doing something that I dislike.

I know I should but I can't.

When the others put in tremendous effort and striving for their best, I just do my work for the sake of the work. Assignment? Test? I couldn't care less.

This is not the path I would have chosen for myself.

However, what's done is done. As quoted from Joseph Campbell, "We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us."

It's time for me to Try My Best.

幸福

很多时候，我会不懂得去珍惜身旁所拥有的东西。。

但是， 今天就不一样：

一片海绵蛋糕，一起逛夜市，一起变落汤鸡，

有一个陪我一起经历这一切的朋友，

能认识她，我是幸福的。

一通电话里头，传来了吃饱了吗？一个人在家，还好吗？

几封短信，也可以让我觉得好幸福。。

家人的关心，问候，

虽然简短，但足以让我觉得有家人是幸福的。。。

原来，幸福可以是很简单，

只要懂得用心去体会，感受，

小小的事情也可以让我们感到快乐，幸福。

Holiday~~

Starting from today, I have one week of semester break. However, I'm still unable to plunge into a holiday mood. T.T

The reason behind this: Thesis and piles of assignment!

4 reflections, 1 article, 1 lab presentation, 1 thinking map, macroteaching (RPH, Instruments, etc), action research, linguistic group assignment and thesis PROPOSAL.

One week holiday is insufficient at all!

Hopefully can finish half of it...

Then can spend the rest of my holiday blissfully...

Lets work hard to finish the work and lets the holiday spirit soar! ^^

龙卷风

听着室友播放的歌， 在这忙碌的星期里忙里偷闲。。。

忽然，听到了周杰伦的龙卷风。。想起了我弟。。

依稀记得那时的我们很傻，

因为妈咪不让我俩买专辑，又没得上网，

但那时的我们很爱听歌，

所以只好向别人借来了专辑，抄下歌词，然后一起练唱 （其实是我弟教我这个五音不全的大姐唱 T.T)。

这首歌勾起了许都童年回忆， 不知那本抄满歌词的小册子依然还在吗？

开始想家了。。

家， 始终是最温暖的。。。

家， 始终是我的避风港。。。

值得高兴的一天

7/3/2012 12.00 pm

打了一通电话， 在电话的另一端传来了许久没听见的兴奋与快乐的声音。不用说，也知道是个好消息。

感到高兴， 因为这是人生的另一段路程的开始。有了一个好的开始，路， 也好走得多。

感到高兴， 因为看见了这么久的努力没白费。

感到高兴， 因为并没有步上我的后尘。

感到高兴， 因为人生终于可以自己掌陀。

祝福你，

愿你未来的日子比现在过得更好更精彩。。。

First time ever

16/12/2011

This marks the day where I went to shop and dine alone at KL. Its a new and exciting experience for me. Overall, its a nice one. However, I can feel the plights of those who usually dine alone. The waitress was surprised when I said that just one person will dine. haha.. anyway, these are few photos to share with you guys:



some of the dishes that I ordered


one of my favourites

朋友

朋友，在大学的生涯扮演了重要的角色。。。

一句关心，

一句：不用紧， 我去就好。。。

一个充满关心的举动：我买错了，我不吃芝士， 你吃吧！

一个很乱来的借口， 就已经让我的心温暖了起来。。。

让我低落的心情 顿时好了起来，嘴角牵着微笑。。。

谢谢你， 最真诚的朋友。。。

心情不错

最近过得蛮愉快的 :)

开课至今差不多有一个月了吧！

每个周末都在巴士上度过。。。有点累，但是都是值得的。。。

第一个周末（16-18/9/2011）

下了BP一趟，也去了JB一趟。。。

到了我的其中一个快乐天堂：The Zon

因为这里可以买到我的快乐--- Ferrero rocher

也顺道去了Ayugawa Japanese & Italian Buffet (就在the zon legacy hotel 那儿）

漂亮的茶壶摆设

精致的sashimi拼盘

还有许都的日式佳肴和意大利菜。。。

吃完大餐后呢， 每个都饱得不会动了（很有满足感）。之后就启程回去了（有点舍不得哦。。）

第二个周末（23-25/9/2011）

这个周末过得非常充实。三个傻婆心血来潮去了趟云顶。一路上我们都笑得好开心，许久都没这么 开怀大笑了。。。（真的要多谢我那两位可爱的伙伴 :)

在缆车上

梅花树下。。 哈哈。。。

大家都笑得很开心，很自然。。。

我的第一次：虽然是连哄带骗的被哄上去的，虽

然很可怕，但依然要谢谢那两位大小姐，因为让我享受到了那瞬间的美丽景色和可怕的无助感 :p

美丽的回忆

超爱和石头合照的我

在洗手间整理湿溻溻的我：有种上当的感觉因为室友说玩了之后是不会很湿的（原来事实并非如此）。

我们真的好幸运， 竟然买到张信哲演唱会的入门票，而且是不错的位置哦！

张信哲！！！

欣赏完演唱会后呢，疯狂三人组就到戏院连续看了两部半夜场：

Johnny English Reborn: 从头笑到尾（虽然一看完就忘了在笑什么）

Fright Night: 我的第一部horror movie。 其实并不清楚故事情节， 也不懂好不好看。 原因：我和室友都在蒙着眼睛看，而且我们也很睏了。

之后，三人行就在hotel's lobby过了一夜（很冷很冷的一夜）（疯狂吧？年轻嘛就是要大胆尝试）（其实是没订到酒店啦，我们也不想在lobby过夜的）

还有一点：我们把赌场当成了咖啡厅，进出赌场只为了那温暖的milo。。 哈哈。。 （可爱吧？:p）

回家途中，大家都累垮了。。。 但都带着满满的满足感和无比的快乐心情回到我们平凡的TM。

第三个周末（30/9-2/10/2011）

这个周末我也是到处去逛一逛:) 到了BP就吃个不停（睡醒就吃，吃饱了又睡，睡了又吃，如此循环了三天才算结束）。。。尝尽了各种让我垂涎三尺的美食， 然后才幸福满满的搭上归途。:)

后记：非常期待十月的来临。 就快参与科系所举办的一连串的camping, field trip。。。 希望不同， 新鲜的回忆会伴随着我归来。。。

少了。。。

忽然心血来潮，打开了沉睡了许久的部落格。。。

也许是失眠了吧！但有股冲动想胡乱在键盘上按出现在的心情。。。

少了自我为中心的生活，

少了和朋友相聚的机会，

少了朋友，

少了灵感，

少了向前冲的动力，

少了要对人微笑的习惯，

少了凡是向好的方面想的想法，

少了出去玩的冲动，

少了， 我也不知道我好少了什么，

我好像步入了只属于我一个人的世界，

不善于和人沟通，

不想和人沟通，

什么都不想，

好像少了灵魂似的地过着

千篇一律的生活。

期待。。。

原来

心情不好,想找个人聊天也没有...
打开面子书一看,才发现到没有一个是可以陪我聊一聊的...
原来,我已经离开了属于自己的社圈...
原来,我的朋友真的不多...
原来,我放弃了这么的多...
原来,我一直活在自己的世界里...
原来,我还有这么多的原来..
无奈.. 无奈啊!..

truly, madly, deeply

I think of the time when we were preparing for STPM. This song really soothes me whenever i felt the pressure of exam. Dunno why, but really like this song. Miss the time when all of us study and at the same time enjoying our life with all the small things that means a lot to me when I'm looking back of that time. Thanks to all my dearest pal!

当下- Thoughts of the day

" Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."

Time to catch up :)

Yeah! First post in year 2011! congratulation to myself for finally started blogging again.. anyway, lets get started..

Well, I'm a sophomore starting this semester.. Feels like getting older as the times pass by.. Can even feels the breeze of it.. :P My life here seems to be getting better or i should said, i'm well accustomed to my mundane uni life.. To be frank, started to enjoy and appreciate my life as a student in this particular university. Hopes its' not too late to realize this...Because before this, i was having a miserable life due to my own unhappy thoughts...

During my last semester break, i've put on a lot of thoughts on this matter.. Then i realized, why should i made my life so miserable and bored? Nobody is going to pull me out of this state, it's up to me to help myself or continuously let myself get drown in this self--pitying state.. Hence, i decided to change into my new self gradually. Hope can see the changes by the end of this year.

As usual, new year new resolution. I've made a few simple plan for myself. First, enjoy life to the fullest. I'll give more attention to the small pleasures in life instead of chasing after those unreachable goal. Learn to savors moment in life. This is crucial because i realized that 'life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans' as quoted from Mitch Albom. No point wasting time on planning something which we'll never archive. Apart from that, I'll put in effort to have more 'me' time. Spend times to do something which i like, pampering myself with food or books which i enjoy and most important of all, be myself.

I have given a good start with my new year resolution: enjoy my afternoon with a cuppa and a slice of cake plus a pals to talks with. :-)

不要鑽牛角尖

人﹐其實可以過得簡單又快樂。。。
這其中的玄機就是-你在那一念之間的抉擇。。。

很多時候﹐我們的不快樂﹐不愉快﹐都是自找的。。
我們太執着﹐又愛鑽牛角尖。。。
雖然執着有時是一件好事。。。
但一旦 過於執着﹐
那就不會是件好事﹐反而會讓一個人看不透周遭的一切。。。

遇着不愉快。。。

我們可以對着它苦惱不已﹐無論如何都要把它給剷除掉。。。
然後把自己搞得疲憊不堪﹐成日在那唉聲嘆氣。。。
又或許我們可以對它笑一笑﹐ 然後繞道而行﹐繼續我們那漫長的人生旅途。。。

這一切都掌握在自己的手中。。。

蝴蝶

啊。。。好美啊﹗
快來看看﹐
那顏色是多麼地引人注目﹐
多麼地迷人。。。
在那花叢中﹐
自由自在地飛訝飛呀。。。
此景煞是好看。。。
人﹐
總是把目光放在漂亮﹐賞心悅目的東西身上。。。
只會欣賞它那外在的美麗﹐
又有誰會把目光
放在曾經擁有醜陋的外表﹐
從前的它呢﹖
曾幾何時﹐
又有誰在乎它﹐
是如何地努力﹐
如何地面對過去種種的困難與辛酸﹐
才成為今天的它呢﹖

筆于25/4/2010

Something to ponder about

Its been quite sometime since the last update.. Anyway...

Been in a lot of things lately... Nothing went smoothly but learning to stand up when i've falls down.. Yes.. i know i'm not independent enough and i'm learning in the past one and a half year.. Thanks to those who ever encouraged me all this while..

Learning to admit that is my fault that i get scolded, not others. Thats the 1st thing that i need to learn in order to be independent. Trying not to put the blame on others when something do not go smoothly...

And... realised that nobody is perfect.. its time for me to tuck my temper away in a deep corner.. And try to change to a better person..

There are still so much to learn and so many obstacles which need to be overcome in the path lying ahead... but will be looking forward to it.. because with each step that i take, i'm one step nearer to my goal.. and i'll be learning from it... :)

New Year

Well, the CNY have passed... miss my family, miss my old friend.. miss my hometown..
I'm a year older now, but it doesn't seems that i'm a year wiser.. everything is moving forward... but i'm still standing on the same ground... doubting and struggling to make my move..
a lot of things have changed as time pass.. even those younger than me is moving ahead of me.. its'time for me to ponder what have i accomplished in the past years..
need a place for me to be myself.. or i should said a place that i can fit in.. always seems out of place.. and hope the never ending problems can give me a break.. tired but no place to go..